Tuesday, August 22, 2006
R v Ghost
Yo its Hungry Ghost Festival !! N I'd like to say 'FUCK YOU!' to all the evil ghosts.. and 'RIP' & 'HOPE ALL'S WELL' to those goodie spirits. Cheers! I know this is rather overdue but the reason I'm posting this is cuz there have been a few err.. stuff tht happened throughout this fest la.
Ok, this is gona be real short cuz I wanna get back to revision!
First the article on Star about this Malaysian Ghoul Exhibit of some sort. Apparently some society or smth claim tht the exhibits are fake & asked for the exhibit to be closed cuz the public are being conned. So this bloody ustaz says he'll bring the ghouls to life in 3 weeks time in his backyard in Kuang. WTF! If im not mistaken, Ripley's Believe or Not would be there to conduct tests or smth? shits man.. but my take on it is the bugger won't be able to bring those crap to life larh. Probably are fake items n dolls..? lol.. I hope I'm wrong, cuz it'll be so damn kewl if they were real man! Dude. Goosebumpssss~~
Then my friends are I decided to have an 'Extreme' XPDC! Yeah we're gonna be supernatural researchers and scare our balls off. Watching & tellin ghost materials & stories. Visiting haunted sites & shit! DAMN, dude! THAT's 'EXTREMEEEee' *folds arms in shape of 'X'* HAHAHA...
This is followed up by me studyin late in the Taylor's College Library. At around 8.30pm I had to go for a toilet break. While I was pissing, suddenly the fuckin lights went off. So I finished pissing & pulled up my pants in pitch darkness! Stormed out the door to scare the bugger who switched off the lights but no one was there! However this guy who was walkin towards the library was alil jolted cuz I burstd out the toilet. HAHA so I switched on the lights & washed my hands. But I admit, I was alil spooked tho there are many ways to explain it. Like Varun said, a lizard might hav went over the switch! HAHAHAHAHA thts just DUmMMB Man!! lol...
Oh then today it was followed up with Asia's lights gettin fucked wen I had my lunch. WTF! This Taylor's ghost means business man! AHHAHA.. Electricity went haywire & the lights seemed to be the one electrical appliance which seemed to be really affected. Fans were kewl. Spinnin happily round n round n round hahaha.. THe stalls were kewl cuz they had generators.. Eh, Taylor's ghost, CHILL LARH!
THen this person*name disclosed for reasons disclosed too haha* who is erm nvm. This person whom I know also apparently had an encounter & nightmares of some sort. But I've yet to get anything solid so far. Till then!
ADIOZZZZZZ!
[Dear Diary, I FCked Up Bad ToDay..]
11:11 PM
Sunday, August 20, 2006
All's not Ok
Your burden, More than one can carry,
All
Your life, All the pain
In times when
You are lost, and no one wants
YouNobody is there..
No one to turn to..
A fledgling, petrified, confused and weak
Unable to fend for yourself.
In the worst of
Your moments,
You seek God
Where is He?
Why does He not come?
It's my burden now
The burden of
Your life
It leaves me tiresome..
I feel the hurt inside of
YouI'm always here.
All these pain and hurt...
will pass, believe will carry
You through.
To be seen by her? To be seen as I see you.
This burden I cannot share.
Especially not her. So instinctively I hide.
a place I often sought comfort.
My own shell, away from the world.
If only I could run to her.
One day
When you've past your time
I want you to know ma
that I understand.
I love u Mum!
[Dear Diary, I FCked Up Bad ToDay..]
2:18 PM
Friday, August 18, 2006
Somethings in Life are best left in denial...
Who's to argue? Denial, denial, denial. Bliss, bliss, bliss. Two simple words to equate, D E N I A L = B L I S S. For example, You remain totally denial about things which you know would either hurt you or could possibly make you delirious. Say,..... your exams results eh? It's either you get the results you want or NOT! So we bring in denial into this situation, and VOILA!, you have bliss. How so? Yeah, you may run the chance of being deliriously happy if you obtained your 'desired' results but you'd still be happy if you were in absolute denial about your results. Ok, my sentence structure sux, but you get it right? LOL.
Now, denial is a good tool. But you have to admit, there are circumstances in life where you just simply can't live in denial. Unless you dig a hole and hide there for the rest of your life. Even then, someone might dig up that hole and tell you the things you dread finding out about etc. Sometimes things just come to you, without you asking for it to happen or err come to you?! haha.
Here's where learning how to be immune to painful things come along. Now, there are so many zillions millions trillions billions dillions willions gillions things that could possibly happen. You can't possibly have a thing to immune each thing from hurting or wtv-ing you right? Unless you have a method which works for every possible shit that comes to you and you feel unmoved by it. Do you have such a method? Cause denial certainly doesn't apply to everything. If you do, gimme a call... HaHAHAHaha! Cheers.
Ps: I hate having to suck up to ppl & be an idiot all the time, I'm sick of it & I had just about enough. At least I know now I wasn't all that significant. HAHA. Trust me on this, don't ever say things if you don't mean them. Nature has its way of getting back at you! Swear! Blow that candle out for me please. It made me blind standing too close all the time. Thanks.
PSS: To those who tell me stuff about my blog, my posts aren't always about what I am personally going through in life etc. Some are posts dedicated to other people's stories & others are just creative writing... And YES! I swear alot =p
*edited*
[Dear Diary, I FCked Up Bad ToDay..]
10:18 PM
Wednesday, August 16, 2006
The truth
So here we are
We are alone
Theres weight on your mind
I wanna know
The
truth, if this is how you feel
Say it to me
If this was ever real
I want the
truth from you
Gimme the
truth, even if it hurts me
So this is you
Youre talking to me
You found a million ways to let me down
So Im not hurt when youre not around
I was blind
But now I see
This is how you feel
Just say it to me
If this was ever real
I know that this will break me
I know that this might make me cry
You gotta say whats on your mind, on your mind
I know that this will hurt me
and break my heart and soul inside
I dont wanna live this lie
I want the
truth from you
Gimme the
truth, even if it hurts me
Just gimme the
truth, gimme the
truthCause
I dont care no more
-=<>|| Thx
GC ||<>=-
[Dear Diary, I FCked Up Bad ToDay..]
1:55 AM
Monday, August 14, 2006
Hit that gas pedal!? It's a 10 second race bitch haha
Just some words of encouragement to those buggers out there who feel as if all's lost. OK, I already see those eyes rolling. Some already gettin their barf bags. Yeah la I'm a dingbat la.. An unlikely source for comfort? EH, just to let you Fuckers out there noe I'm a good listener & I give damn good advice OK! Oprah better be reading this. I'm gonna be on her show soon.. And those moms will be crying to my stories! HAHA... Soon I'll be on broadway.. then Hollywood.. Then I'll beat up that guy who's gettin married to Jessica Alba & then get married to her & hav lots of pretty babies! MUahAHAHA.. okok. Side tracking.
To y'all young & hopeless zombies & what not. Listen up!
Hold on to what's left. Try to make whatever you're left with work. Even if everything seems to have gone down the drain. After all, what are miracles for? Nothing is EVER lost. It will eventually come back. So roll your sleeves up and get up and do something about it, do your best and what you think is right. Follow the heart, it's what keeps your blood pumping! Doesn't make sense? Whoever told you it had to make any sense anyway? How many things in this world are ever really certain. Take risks! Add alil prayer to your hardwork, sweat it out. Tears may come along the battle, but at the end, hopefully all's bright and you've got what you wanted. Even if you've not got what you worked so dear for, you at least have the comfort of knowing you've come close to what you wanted, hopefully. Remember, nothing is EVER lost. EVER.
[Dear Diary, I FCked Up Bad ToDay..]
1:21 AM
Monday, August 07, 2006
Whatever Will Be Will Be
It's soon I know
Anon a distant memory
Locked in the limitless space of the mind
Time passes
Feelings develop and fade
Sitting here with a sundae
Just happens to be a Sunday
People stroll in then out
I look outside for distraction
But rain and fogged windows shroud my vision
Resigning me to my sentiments
Time is my remedy
An exodus of emptiness
I want to leave this place
Live and let be
Que sera sera
I see myself there, I do.
[Dear Diary, I FCked Up Bad ToDay..]
9:44 PM
Sunday, August 06, 2006
In memory of Blink-182
OHkay so Blink-182 are gone. For good? I don't have a clue, but since lead guitarist Tom is in a new band 'Angel & Airwaves', I DON'T THINK THEY ARE COMING BACK. Sob Sob... So I've got a video on my blog to remind everyone of America's favourite punk rock band.
STUDY STUDY STUDY! exams in less than a month
[Dear Diary, I FCked Up Bad ToDay..]
11:40 PM
Tuesday, August 01, 2006
I Loved You All Along
Just in case you were awaiting a sap post. Sorry yeah. Just happen to be the title of the song I'm listening to. It's Our Lady Peace btw, sure alot of you out there noe this band rite. Not like the song is great or anything la.. Just can't think of a title. HAHAHA
SO yeah, 'some' nice guys out there can turn out to be hell of a weird. Namely some who are sensitive towards what a girl says to them. A lil' misunderstanding and they turn all sap and start sulking like as if they are heartbroken. Pathetic huh? and NO, it doesn't broil down to the fact that because they're nice guys they are naturally sensitive. HEck, thts the biggest bullshit EVER. I'm a guy so I know this kinda shit aight!?.. It's lame n' pathetic. So be a Man n toughen up!
Furthermore, my fren just said something which is really erm true? n well worth listening to. It's about rifts in a relationship. This guy here came over to Malaysia to study while his gf is back in his homeland I think- so its a long distance relationship. But there isn't a problem there, its their parents. Cause of religious or some thingamajiggga the parents don't approve of their relationship and so they had to break up. Which is very sad see. N it really cheeses him off seeing others in relationships where they aren't willing to work on things of err lil' significance. Here he is thinking that IF I had the oppurtunity to be able to work something out it'll be great but its not in his hand and others just couldnt giff a shit about mending their relationships. So treasure your partner yall. Work things out! =) There are others out there who aren't as fortunate to have the oppurtunity to work things out.
PS: I'll play it for you someday. Hopefully :P
[Dear Diary, I FCked Up Bad ToDay..]
5:31 PM