Friday, October 20, 2006
I'm leaving on a jet plane
Will be leaving in about 4 hours time! N I can't friggin put myself to sleep... To everyone, I'm not bringing my hp with me.. Cuz apparently the customs in Kashmir are fucked and chances are your stuff might get stolen.
You know how sometimes you drift apart? It's just a thought.
I need to sleep! I'm tired but I can't sleep... =(
[Dear Diary, I FCked Up Bad ToDay..]
12:10 AM
Wednesday, October 18, 2006
lmao
This is going to be ONE post for ONE particular person.. If you're reading it, GOOD!.. I'm gona let it all out here just for YOU =)
First, yeah.. I only fuckin' talked about you here in my fuckin blog because you fuckin' talked about me. Where the fuck you got the idea that I like you? Furthermore, you had the decency to tell your friends that I like you. HAHAHA What a joke. Wait, now I'm wondering where you got the idea.. Did I tell you I had a thing for you? I don't recall. Maybe you were dreaming? Nonsensical. Please watch what you tell people btw, secrets hardly remain secrets..
Oh, thanks for the concern. But I'm really doing fine! I'm not sad to the point where I need to 'avoid' the person or have the person 'avoid' me. What on earth were you thinking?
Besides that, we don't bitch. You know what I mean by WE.. Lord, I put the crap up in my blog BECAUSE I KNOW YOU READ MY GODAMN BLOG. You think I'll hide one corner and not let you know how disgusted I am?! C'mon. Who you think you're dealing with? A nerdy geeky fucker non-socialite who has no guts to voice his feelings?.. In addition to that, it only shows that what people told me about you telling trash is true. I mean, who else would be affected by my post then? I don't put names, I only lay down facts. Yes FACTS. Cause they're true and it's proven by the very fact that my post got to you. People who did not say the things I mentioned my post won't understand a shit.. =D
And it has nothing to do with being a man. I'm more MAN than 90% of the guys you know out there THANK YOU =) C'mon, I'm Andrew. Which girl would think I'm a wuss? You MUST be outa your mind Miss. If you have a problem, please come up to me.. I'll gladly explain to you everything. Maybe shed some light on your 'perasanness'...
Ever wondered why you have so many people stabbing you in the back? or... why some people don't like you? GO figure. Really..
[Dear Diary, I FCked Up Bad ToDay..]
10:31 PM
Sunday, October 15, 2006
I'm a fast living hard riding ROCK GOD!
The following pictures show you the making of a Rock Legend...
HAHA! Convinced? You typical 'everyday' rocker? Of course not. Not even a tad bit close!!
Hhaha... So not true! C'mon! I'm not on drugs, I don't feel like committing suicide, I'm not very good with the guitar, I don't know how to play the drums, I can't sing to save my life, I don't have loads of chicks surrounding me, I don't fuck around, I don't look like a rocker, I don't even have a tattoo(in time I will), I took out my piercings and NO my parents didn't abuse me when I was younger.
I really don't have much to blog about. Or anything to blog about!
Life is quite the boring at the moment..
Except for the lil bitch fest going on around me as usual, chic fishing and friend-orientated fun.
Someone make me a Santana or a Jimi Hendrix.. Cmon! My hands aren't gonna take me far with this guitar! I wanna lead a rocker's lifestyle! Except that I don't wanna die at the age of 28 from overdosed cocaine and shit. LOL... Oh, minus the depression and all that too! But the money, rockstar glam, guitar jamming and chics are welcome! hahahaha.. I'm living in a dream! *slaps*
Seriously, I have nothing to blog about.
Oh wait, *edited* World Trade Center is a good movie. Really! If you're the type who appreciates good movies, I recommend WTC. It's based on survivor's accounts and supposedly they wanted the movie to be the most historically accurate EVERR! It really tells alot and I swear I heard ppl crying. LOL.. Nah, I'm just exaggerating! Even Nicole didn't cry. Did you? haha! *points finger* All in all, a GOOD movie. Nicholas Cage is a good actor. *points at video on top left hand corner of the blog* That's the theme song for City of Angels and the leading actors are Nicholas Cage and Meg Ryan. That's a nice movie too.. Esp if you're a girl. Man, Nicholas Cage rocks la. He should go on stage and rock out til the other half of his head goes bald =P
Toddles.. oh I meant, ROCK ON. haha.. Have a good day ya'll! Shit, I have classes tomorrow. Ughhh!
[Dear Diary, I FCked Up Bad ToDay..]
8:29 PM
Tuesday, October 10, 2006
Nothing better to do
Today is some public holiday for Selangorians la so got to wake up late! HAHA!! YESS
Went to OU today cuz Mum & Sis wanted to go shopping -_-" Technically I was driver lo.
Got a pair of pants just for the trip to mafuckin India in slightly more than a week's time. I'm gonna suffer there man. Die DiE DIEEE!
Whoa, OU today got quite alota chics wei. HMM! Wash eyes wash eyes. LOL.. Eye flirted with a few people's gfs Muahahaha! I'm bad I'm bad. But what to do?
*Perasan Alert!* I was born ******** God spent alil more time sculpturing my ***** and maybe that's why so many g**ls look at ME haha man I'm a F**ker haha F***.. OKOK, just playing around! Don't come knockin on my door with a baseball bat. WKaka.
Oh I met Chin Wuu and his cousin who went to watch a movie 'Miami Vice' at GSC. I then decided to watch the movie myself too, alone!.. Sad case wei lol. GSC was SO happening and had a fuckin long queue so I walked to TGV to get the ticket instead. So few ppl there in TGV, bloody hantu cinema LOL.. Didn't manage to watch the movie till the end though, Mum & Sis wanted to head home already. Had to walk out of the movie.. =( OH well, wasn't tht interesting of a movie anyway.
This year is gonna be different. Not sure if I'm gonna like it, but I don't think I will.. HEHE, alil pessimistic but I can sense the shit hole its gonna be throughout the year. Anyways, I should find my place in this stupid class le, someone is having fun on the other side of the planet.. lol =p
By the wayyyy, some people are ACTUALLY perasan like hell ok.. The lil theathrical perasanness shit I put you readers up to at the beginnin of the post wasn't genuine la BUT SOME people.. My Gawd! I feel like slapping them. I layan them abit only go around telling that I LIKE THEM.. Oh KAY! You know how hard is it for me to LIKE someone..?? *Pooi* If you like me, just say it larh, don't fuckin go around tellin people that I LIKE YOU MAHAI.. Fuckin kindergarten or wut?! I hate rumours, esp when they're about me. Luckily this one isn't the worst that I've encountered. I hate perasan bitches =) Thank You and Have a Nice Fuckin Non-Perasan Day! HAHA
*edited*
I was tested into including this into my blog
" I miss Steph ALOT ALOT ALOT " haha.. See, you expect the same of me. Now I expect the same of you! Grr.. >_<
[Dear Diary, I FCked Up Bad ToDay..]
6:28 PM
Wednesday, October 04, 2006
Bum Dee BUM Dee Dee DEE DEEE DUM lulu..
Whokay! People are saying things about me that are kinda controversial now. Honestly, I'm not too happy about it. Why is it they say such things? I can't tell for sure. Out of jealousy or just out of goodwill? I have no idea. In fact, it would be unfair for me to start pointing fingers and blaming people.. Maybe, just maybe they were being considerate towards ME! =P Although, I will have to stress that I absolutely didn't like what was being said. HECK NO! To those who know what this shit is about. Yeah! I said it.
To add on, why you people keep asking if I have a thing for someone? I don't LIKE that someone, BUT not in a bad way.. Actually, I don't LIKE that someone in a very good way. You know what?! It's actually down right BETTER that I don't like that someone anymore. I will justify that in a year's time! xP Lmaoz.. Confused? Great! That was my objective woot. Anywhos, for all you curious buggers out there. I do care about this someone very much! I'll guard that someone with my life if I have to, YES! I hear the 'AwWwwwS' already. But it's true, that someone is very important to me and that someone changed me as a person to the extent where that someone's well being is extremely important to me... So FUCK you people who think senget. HAHA just kidding xD
[Dear Diary, I FCked Up Bad ToDay..]
5:57 PM
Tuesday, October 03, 2006
Emptiness...
I woke up after a sleepless night..
Got myself out of bed and the thoughts
they started flooding in
Tearing my heart apart
At the office
I got a faint silhouette of your face
Follows with a smile on my face
and Yes, I miss you too
So much more than you can imagine
I try to work round the day
So that I don't think of you
So that I don't miss you
It's killing me softly
When I get home
I'm alone and I start to descend into my thoughts
So I decide to leave my room
Meet my buds
Still I think of you
Driving home
I wonder what you're up to
How you're doing
and whether you're coping fine
I get home and you leave me a message
I miss you too
So much that it hurts
I'm really empty
I hate the fact we're worlds apart
Why are you crying?
I wished I was there to wipe them tears
Hold on, be strong
Everything will be fine.. I promise.
[Dear Diary, I FCked Up Bad ToDay..]
12:28 AM
Sunday, October 01, 2006
I need therapy!
Fuckin need to take my mind of this mess..
Someone gimme a call.. Make me laff make me dance make me sing make me jump make me run make me shout make me forget!! Cmon CMon! Watcya waiting for? My num is.. U know la! Call me out! FUCKERS! CALL ME! FUCK U CALL ME NOW! YES U, FUCKER!
Argh.
Empty =( I need a buddie to talk to now!
I need to be busy. Haihs... This is warghhh! tormenting my butt wei. OK, shall keep myself busy! ciao
[Dear Diary, I FCked Up Bad ToDay..]
7:01 PM
Something's missing..
This is again. Directly meant for Steph..
I just got home like 10 minutes ago and the first thing I saw when I got into my room was a message on MSN. Steph left me a message telling me to read her blog.
So I did. My part was short. But it doesn't matter how short or long it was. Thanks!
I'm fuckin' emo now. Fuckin fuckin emo and I'm having second thoughts about seeing you off tomorrow. But I've got no choice since Alicia is depending on me for transportation.. I know by the time you read this you'll probably have settled down in Reading.
Truth is this past one week has been horrid for me. All I could think for most of the time was you leavin and not being around anymore! and and and how you'll cope in Reading. I've missed your stupid ass like shit these few weeks and I can't imagine you gone for so long. Hahaha! >.<
I purposely made myself busy every freakin nite just so I won't be around in my house. Afraid to see ur name online and start all the bullshit in my head again.. So yeah, I PURPOSELY made myself busy everyday just so I won't have to think about all this crap.
Infact, I just duno what to say. Even til now I don't.. Wah, fuckin emo man.. HAhaha -_-" the card doesn't even say half the stuff that is in my head. So much that I wanna tell you but I just duno how to put it or I just fuckin forget to pen it down in the card. Oh well. Nvm.. xP
Thinkin about all this, I'm guessin it's probably just a phase. Honestly, everything will be fine in about a day or so, I hope. You'll do just fine in Reading and this stupid song playing on my fuckin laptop isn't helpin my mood now. Ok, control macho! haha. Shit this is bad.. I can't even remember the last time I cried. So dont cry in the airport arh u dumbasses! I swear I'll kick all of those who cry wan. HAha Fuck! Fuck u Jem.. Stupid song is killin me.
Thanks Steph for everythin you are to me and everythin that you've done to/for me. I appreciate it.
[Dear Diary, I FCked Up Bad ToDay..]
12:51 AM